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dolls, priorities and decisions

November 21, 2011

i used to write candidly about my thoughts and feelings back in my livejournal days (2003 – 2010) and then i stopped because i felt i needed a change. i created this blog, which i updated a couple of times, but it got quiet after a while because i only rarely felt like sharing my thoughts publicly.
i have always followed my instinct with these things, and it was telling me to be quiet for a while, because i knew what i felt but i didn’t need to let others know that information. it was time to be cocoon-y.

i now once again, or perhabs for the first time for real, feel like sharing my thoughts, and because i haven’t written in so long, there are many subjects i want to touch, things i want to talk about.
as of now, this moment sitting down and starting this document, my head is a little dizzy from all the thoughts swirling around in it at the same time wanting to be shared, but i figure, start in one place and write down one thing at a time, and we’ll get through it.

first of all, i shall start with a declaration. every time i feel like writing about dolls, i am aware that there are people who do not relate much to the doll world, and would rather hear about my life. though you have to understand that dolls, the ones i care about, mean a lot to me and have become a way for me to express myself. you will find “me” within my talkings about dolls if you look for me. :)

you may have seen that i am expecting a most unique and beautiful tiny porcelain bjd by Ilona Jurgiel. this is special to me in different ways, one of them being that i met Ilona in person in 2010, at the Fragility show that Marina Bychkova was holding in Berlin, Germany.
i very much liked Ilona as a person and could relate to her, although the exhibition was quite busy and so our conversations did not go very deep, i felt that she was a very interesting and beautiful human being.
seeing how seemingly quickly she found her calling to make dolls, and how they touched me ever since i saw them first, i feel that i was looking for them without even knowing it, because when i saw them, it was like finding a piece of myself that i had been looking for.
this is what always happens when i desire a doll, there is something unexplicable that draws me to it, seeing that it is my belief that everything and everyone is One, i look at purchasing/adopting a doll like in recollecting a piece of myself that has always existed but now is visible in front of me.

thus is my explanation for choosing a doll, and for choosing past dolls that now live with me, or even ones that no longer live with me. surely with the latter, there was something there, but this was no longer needed in my actual vicinity, and yet, leaving it, that thing would still not be gone from me, seeing that i am One with all that is.

i think you are beginning to realize that dolls, and indeed everything in my life, is spiritual to me. spirituality is the core of me, it simply is what IS and comes natural for me.

aaanyway, don’t think that i am not having fun, oh i have lots of fun, happiness is very dear to me, but i allow any feeling to pass through me and i don’t judge them.

back to the dolls, there have been other ones on my wishlist for a while but like everyone, i have to prioritize and can not simply buy each doll i see and like, for financial reasons.
as you know, i love my Enchanted Doll Iðunn, and it is my wish to one day add a second ED to my little doll family. that wish was always there ever since i put eyes on them for the first time. i was lucky to adopt dear Iðunn and would never give her up if i can help it, but i always also had the wish to have an ED who is closer to my dream doll. that changes slightly but most often is either Banshee, Sapphire or Penelope/Lily.
there is the wish to be able to use the beautiful wigs made by Amarilli which i feel enhance an ED greatly because she understands wigmaking for Enchanted Dolls.
now as ED fans will know, it is not easy to acquire an ED, custom orders were closed in summer 2008 and prices have risen exceptionally. there were plans for resin ED’s at some point, but each time Marina tried to realize them, it didn’t seem to work out. i almost wonder if maybe Marina took it as a sign to either wait, or altogether cease those plans. who knows.
the resin ED plan gave me some hope as it would have been a way for me to afford a second ED, but so far it was not to be. i certainly would welcome it warmly, should it happen in the future, but i am not so sure anymore.
even though this will sound outrageous for some, seeing that i am the lucky owner of an Enchanted Doll (and i am indeed aware of how lucky i am), not being able to acquire this fleeting dream ED has given me quite some heart ache, which i was not that consciously aware of until recently. i know that many people feel sad about being in a similar position, or not even being able to have one ED. i am not trying to diminish their feelings, i am simply stating mine.

now though, i am finally able to let these sad feelings go. i am finally realizing truly how lucky i am to have the dolls that are with me, and simply feeling happy while looking at them. i have realized that truly, “if it’s meant to be, it will be”. and all time is now, everything has already happened, i am just traveling thorugh time like watching a movie minute after minute, i simply feel the whole of it and i feel such a sense of gratitude for all that i am and have.

in this new way, i have found Ilona’s dolls and maybe others can relate, but don’t you love it when everything just falls in place and works out, and when you look back you see that it was meant to be? that is how it feels like having come across Ilona’s Lightpainted Dolls and being able to adopt one into my little doll family.

as i meant to tell above, there have been other dolls on my wishlist, and some still are on it, but there is a distinct change of feeling between the ones that end up with me and the ones that don’t. i now have learned to trust in it, when the time is right things work out, and if it isn’t, then it wasn’t meant to be.
there are those that remain on my wishlist, as hope of “some day”. Lidia Snul’s dolls are one such example.
i was actually quite excited to hear that she was releasing resin editions through Jpopdolls, but to be honest, i am not that fond of Jpopdolls faceups on them. i would prefer a doll painted by Lidia. not to say that Jpopdolls faceup isn’t nice, it is, but for me it just doesn’t live up to Lidia’s amazing painting.
that is why i decided that a porcelain doll painted by Lidia would be my preference.
Dust of Dolls Püns was on my list too, but ultimately i feel like it is a beautiful doll that i like to look at in pictures, but that i don’t need to own myself.
there are other ones but it changes slightly all the time.

it is obvious, seeing my little doll family, that i don’t buy many dolls, it is special when i am able to acquire a new one, because i don’t have a steady income (being a freelance translator) and so when i am expecting a new doll, i am always very excited.
this time, waiting for my very own Lightpainted Doll, i am extra excited because it feels special that she is being made especially for me. that experience is new for me, and i am really enjoying that.
i am thinking of her every day and i am making lists with possible names for her. i’m also feeling very inspired and tapping into a world of stories around her.
i think Lightpainted Dolls are unique in their tiny-ness with a mature ethereal body shape, this appeals very much to me and is part of why i feel i have been looking for them without knowing it.

i feel this is the point to conclude this document, and that i will share more about myself in a future one.
it feels very freeing so far, to share my thoughts, and i shall now release them into the world. ;)

Love,
Annina

A Crown and a Throne

April 7, 2011

it has been quite a while since i blogged last, and a lot has happened in that time, but most recently, on April 5th which also is Calle’s birthday, i got a package from Canada in the mail.
it was something that had been coveted by Iðunn and i for a long time.

if you would like to experience a little box opening, you can do so by following this link to my flickr:
http://www.flickr.com/photos/anninaislove/5595846453/

when Iðunn first arrived to me from her previous owner, there was a print of the costumed doll Agnetha included with her, this one:

and when i took her first pictures, she seemed to suddenly align herself to be crowned:

ever since then i dreamed of really crowning her, and now this dream has come true.
Marina has made the beautiful Banshee crown in bronze for me.

an arrival ♥

Iðunn is crowned ♥

Iðunn is crowned ♥

it is even more amazing than i could have imagined and i am so happy that i went with my initial plan of bronze. i was considering gold plated but now i am so happy that i went with bronze because it is such an amazing colour and it looks so beautiful on Iðunn. she looks like out of an old fairy tale, the crown looks so precious and ancient, i just can’t even describe how much i love it.
i want to start saying “my prrrrecioussssss”. :)

thank you dear Marina for making that dream come true and making my dear Iðunn a crowned doll!

and so the time came to also show something else that i have had since a while.
this wonderful Throne in Enchanted Doll size that Calle made for me as a christmas gift.

Iðunn is crowned and enthroned ♥

Iðunn is crowned and enthroned ♥

Iðunn is crowned and enthroned ♥

around christmas time last year i went to my home country switzerland for 2 weeks to visit my family there, and while i was gone Calle kept telling me how his arms and fingers were hurting from making my christmas gift. he kept taunting me and i was so eager to find out what in the world he was doing, i just couldn’t imagine what it could be.
and so when i came home and we exchanged gifts, mine was this magnificent throne made from high quality oak wood by Calle himself. it is just so thoughtful and i love it so much! :D
he designed it himself being inspired by nordic and european history and he got input and assistance from his father Lasse.

both these creations are so precious to me and i am so happy to be able to share them with you now.
if you would like to see more, there are many more photos on my flickr if you follow this link:
http://www.flickr.com/photos/anninaislove/tags/thronefored/

Iðunn’s Portrait

September 29, 2010

on friday i was at the summerhouse with the family to collect mushrooms all day and when i checked the mailbox on saturday (on which we don’t get mail) there was a note among fridays mail saying that there was a package at the post office for me. immediately i hurried Calle along to make ready to drive me there and get it, as i don’t drive myself, and once i got the box i knew what it was. i walked over the parking lot with a biiig smile. :D

what it was:
when the Enchanted Forum was celebrating it’s second anniversary earlier this year different people were holding contests, one of them was Ama. she held a contest called ED & Poetry that you can see here: http://www.biscuitshouse.com/Enchanted/showthread.php?t=1287

even when this contest was pre-announced and i read that the prize was going to be an oil portrait of the winner’s doll made by Ama, i right away was burning for this contest and made a wish that i would do my best to win this amazing prize.
magically, i did, and now my precious prize, an oil portrait of Iðunn with a specially treated frame, created by the talented Ama has arrived. :D
this prize is the most amazing thing i have ever won and i love each detail of it!

i had a little box opening photoshoot that you can see on my flickr starting with this picture:
http://www.flickr.com/photos/anninaislove/5034005499/

here are my favourite photos:

Iðunn says, thank you dear Ama from our hearts for this special creation, we will always treasure it! ♥ ♥ ♥

happy 1-year-Iðunn

July 21, 2010

on July 17th Iðunn has been with me since 1 year!

Iðunn on her first day with me, July 17th 2009

i am on the waiting list for a crown for her, once it is my turn i will commission it from Marina.

there and back again

July 9, 2010

we are back from our little vacation in the middle of nowhere, i really enjoyed the nature and the quiet. lying on the veranda, writing in my diary, the walks down to the lake, sometimes just the sitting outside doing nothing.

i also took many photos of iðunn, she really fits so well for outdoor photography, she looks right at home in nature.

because i brought her in a box with pillows she even “went to bed” every night ;)

one night we drove around in our car and ended up on this cemetary, i quite liked it there.

as you can see it’s half past eleven there and that is as dark as it gets for the night in the summer. at something after 3am dawn starts.

here some more photos of iðunn:

on one of the last days i braided her hair, i think she looks so cute like that.

i’ll end with some photos from another walk we took, along a little stream in the woods.

you can find many more photos of this vacation on my flickr (there’s 5 pages full).

off to berlin!

June 6, 2010

just a quick post to say that Calle and me will be in Berlin from the 9th to the 13th June!
we will be at the Sneak Peak of Marina’s Fragility show at Strychnin Gallery on the 10th and at the opening on the 11th, so looking forward to this!!!
will be back with lots of photos! :)

even more gifts ♥

April 30, 2010

little iðunn is such a lucky girl, some days ago she received gifts in the mail again, this time from australia!
we found this beautifully adorned envelope in the mail:

look it’s monika and fern-fauvette!

and on the front iðunn noticed herself, so she insisted on opening the envelope!

awww it’s that beautiful dress we saw on monika’s flickr and fell instantly in love with, it was for us, how very sweet! and the cute props, so lovely! :)

iðunn got out of her barbie dress

and instantly loves her new dress, and says she will bite if someone takes it off her :)

loving the steampunky patch detail, and it looks a little like a letter to me, so i call iðunn my little messenger now.

one with her in my hand, i had to take many to get a remotely focused one, holding her and my camera and not shaking, not having flyaway hairs, not holding her too steep etc.

thank you soooo much dear monika and fauvette, how sweet of you, we love the dress and props so much ♥♥♥

Gifts from Ruth and Yren

April 7, 2010

yesterday on the 6th we got gifts in the mail from our friends Ruth and her Yren. :D
we held a little photoshoot and want to show what lovely things we got.

what do we have here. let's check

oooh look at these

this one feels nice, i want to try it

we're letting down the hair, look at the lovely locks

this one doesn't quite fit but works as a cute beret, i feel like a french lady

these two are a little small also, they want to pop off. we'll try if they fit others later

this one fits perfectly, and what lovely colours

oh and this one we love, one of our favourite colours

Thank you so much dear Ruth and Yren, these hats are so beautifully made, Iðunn is in love with them and has kept the wine red one on, she looks like a model in it, i love how it emphasizes her long hair!
I also loved your nice words you wrote in the beautiful Monet card, you are so sweet! :)
*hugs*

In a Nutshell

March 25, 2010

I thought long and hard what I could make Marina of Enchanted Doll as a gift for her birthday contest, I wanted it to be something that expressed my feelings for what she gave me by creating her dolls. My mind was blank when I tried thinking of something most of the time, the ideas I had either didn’t fit what I wanted to say with it or they just seemed “not good enough” to enter.
If you know me you’ll know that I love tiny stuff and magical stuff, and have always loved such since I was little. I decided that I wanted my entry to be small to fit in your hand, and be magical.
Then one day, I can’t even really remember how, but the whole idea just appeared in my head, that I want to empty a walnut shell, line it with red velvet, make it hinged in some way and make that be a case for a tiny golden key, like something one might find in a magical world. This would be a symbol to thank Marina for the world she created with her dolls.

I then carried this idea around with me for ages, I think at least a month, but never seemed to be able to actually make it. I mentioned several times on the ED forum that I was composting my idea, and that’s what it felt like, it needed time to be made.

I didn’t have so many weeks left until the deadline of the contest and so I went on Etsy to look for tiny golden keys and red velvet. I initially meant to buy a tiny key charm like this which I also did but I wasn’t really satisfied with the look, not intricate enough. I bought a piece of beautiful looking red velvet also. Then being restless I kept looking through pages and pages of golden keys on Etsy, being kind of underwhelmed with what I found, when I came across this very beautiful like out of a fairytale tiny golden key, I nearly jumped in my seat of joy because it was the prettiest golden key I ever saw, and looking at it it screamed Enchanted Doll. I felt it looked so ED-esque, it fit right in with the Enchanted Doll world. I actually thought it was so pretty that I decided to buy it for myself and made a deal with myself that “in case” it fits in a walnut, it would be the one I’d use for my entry.
I don’t normally click on the buy button just after finding something online, I usually sleep over the decision, but this key magically bought itself, like lightning!

Some days later Calle and me went grocery shopping and the store had loose walnuts. They don’t normally have any but they did then and I took it as a sign that I had to make my idea. I bought 5 walnuts as they were quite expensive and we don’t normally buy expensive stuff, are very budget-conscious when we shop. The number 5 is my favourite, I hadn’t exactly counted the nuts but just grabbed a handful and at home I noticed I bought 5. :)

I then waited for the ordered things and they all arrived spread over a week. I grabbed one of the Walnuts to check if the special golden key would fit in it, and sure enough, it was the perfect size. I was a little sad at first because I woudln’t get to keep it, but very happy at the same time because it was perfect for my idea, much better than the much smaller key charms I intended to use at first.

When I did the actual work the whole thing was trial and error and learning from it, the whole time my approach was, I would try and do my best, but it might not work out like in my head.
I took a sharp knife and attempted to open up one walnut after the other, without breaking the two halves of the shell. I got two that broke and three that actually worked. I didn’t actually yet know how I would line those shells with the velvet, I had never lined anything. But first I had to figure out a way to make these shells hinged. In my head I had imagined tiny home made metal hinges but I realized that it was too andvanced for me to be able to make. I sat down with all the shells, the red velvet and golden key nearby and tried stuff on the failed nut shells. Until I had the idea to use red ribbon to hinge the shells with and also as a closure. I did a trial version on one of the three perfect nuts, the one that was the least pretty. everything seemed to work as I meant it to but after telling Calle my boyfriend a very complicated way of glueing ribbons inside the nut, making slots for them and then binding them to close the shell, he had the great idea to drill tiny holes in each shell so I could then glue a piece of ribbon to the inside of each shell and let it travel through the hole so I could use them to bind and thereby close the shell. (this is really hard to describe right now and I wish I had taken in progress shots but I was so involved in the process I completely forgot to take pics at any stage except the finish)

Either way, I picked the shells that were the best fit for the key and we went to the garage where Calles father Lasse has a workbench with tools and all kinds of stuff. (We live in the house next door from Calle’s parents)
All this was in the middle of the night and we were not sure exactly where the extra drills for the power drill are kept, but finally we found them and sure enough there even was a tiny drill with 1mm diameter, perfect size to fit my 3mm ribbon through without making it too tight.
Dear Calle fastened each shell half and drilled a hole in them very carefully while I was urging him to “not destroy it, don’t do to this side too much, these are the perfect shells, the only ones, etc.”.
It worked perfectly as if by magic and the holes had exactly the right angle *phew*.

I went back to my worktable and then remembered again that each nut had a big red stamp on the outside to mark them where they came from. I hoped it would come off with some water, but of course it was waterproof. I then tried on a failed shell to sand it off with sandpaper, but this didn’t work without leaving a mark. It occured to me to leave the stamp there, but I decided that I wanted it gone. I scoured the place for something sharp to scratch the stamp off the nutshell, and finally did the job with something similar to a surgical blade. It worked perfectly, one could only see something was removed there if one knew. Only it was very time consuming to scratch the colour out of all the tiny nooks and crannies of the outer shell, it took me about two hours. But finally that problem was out of the way.
I then glued the ribbon for the hinge, and the ones for the closure into the shells. Then I tried different ways of lining the shells, until I realized the best way would be to make tiny red velvet pillows in just the right thickness to fill out the shell. I finshed everything and put the golden key in the nut, carefully closed it and bound the ribbon in a nice knot, when I realized that this won’t work. The whole time I hadn’t considered that the ribbon-hinge was loose and that when I bound the ribbon-closure on the other side, the loose hinge would make the two shell halves just hang there open.
I couldn’t believe that I did the whole thing and never thought one moment of that. It was very late and I was very tired and I decided I should go to bed and look at it again the next day.

After a nights sleep I had an idea, I ripped the velvet pillows out of the shells and ripped the old ribbon-hinge out aswell, with a kitchen knife and a tiny file I created slots that would leave just enough space to glue the ribbon into creating a hinge that would close as tightly as possible. In this way I was able to do it, metal hinges would have been better but I was satisfied enough that I had made it work, and I needed to ship it off to Marina that day so it would comfortably make it in time for the deadline.

When I finished this little thing I was in love with it and felt so accomplished. I felt very happy that I was now able to gift it to Marina and let her know through this symbol what her dolls mean to me.
I never made anything resembling this before but I fell in love with working with tiny wooden shells, and it inspires me to do more cute little wood work, because I do love wooden things.

Here is the accompanying description of my gift:

In a Nutshell

Mixed media, Annina Born 2010
Materials: walnut shell, satin ribbon, velvet lining, cotton padding, golden key.

When I first saw Enchanted Dolls it was as if seeing the little elves and magical beings I have been dreaming about ever since I was little. In a nutshell, by creating them you gave me back the key to their magical world and now I want to hand it to you as a small “thank you”!
The walnut case can be opened and closed and the key can be removed. When putting it back, slide it between the protruding wood and the velvet lining of the left shell.

and here are my rushed photos I took of it right before packing it up and shipping it off:

here are the photos on my flickr, click each one to see them (once looking at a photo click “all sizes” to see the big version).

Even though I didn’t win anything I am happy to have been able to give a small token to Marina and it was a lot of fun to create something that I made up in my head and actually follow through!
A little while ago the gallery with all entries went up, and you can see my entry here aswell.
Also check out the complete gallery, I love the variety and creativity of all the entries and want to congratulate everyone who took part, I’m loving this gallery and find it very inspiring! ♥

waiting for…

March 14, 2010

Smilla
Smilla, black-eyed suzie doll by Sarah Faber

we are all waiting today, yes Smilla above too, mostly we are waiting for the prize doll of Marina Bychkova’s birthday contest to be revealed, and also to see all the entries that people made (yes i entered it aswell). oh how exciting!
i don’t know when things will be shown but the deadline to send in an entry was yesterday on the 13th march and Marina’s birthday is on the 16th march. maybe we’ll see a glimpse of the doll she is giving away soon.

Iðunn, the queen, has decided that it is time for spring (the last foam of snow is still lying on the ground and we have a ‘warm’ 2° celsius / 36° farenheit) and has put on a spring-y barbie dress she found in my pullip/barbie clothing storage.
So she is waiting for spring!

she is also wearing a paper crown my boyfriend made for her and a necklace of the beautiful jewelry by Paige of Hammer Stitch & Burn. Paige has sent us some lovely pieces for fittings as she does not have a doll yet, and she was so sweet as to let us keep this beautiful jewelry. you can see all photos of the fittings here. thank you so much again Paige, we really treasure these pieces! ♥

the queen wants spring

ok, blog post over, continuing the wait. :)